Job 37:13 says, “Stand still and consider the wondrous works of God.”
The poignancy of this moment in my life still floods me with emotion. My friend, Chriselda, captured this moment I had to myself just minutes before I walked down the aisle. There was silence in the room but roaring emotion in my heart.
In this moment, I was overwhelmed with feeling unworthy – unworthy of such an amazing man waiting for me at the end of the aisle. Unworthy of amazing family, my selfless sister and brother-in-law, unbelievably loving in-laws. Unworthy of indescribably beautiful friendships. Unworthy of this beautiful and lavish celebration. Unworthy of a room full of people there to celebrate Dean and me. Unworthy of such love.
I told Chriselda these thoughts rushing through my heart and she looked me straight in the eyes and whispered, “Oh Julie, you are worthy and chosen.”
I always knew that I’d be a bride that cried walking down the aisle, but I had no idea that my emotions would be as intense as they were on my wedding day.
In those moments leading up to “I do”, my heart truly couldn’t contain the goodness the Lord had poured over my life, so my heart broke into a thousand pieces and flooded through my eyes and down my cheeks in the form of tears. I cried and I cried and I cried. While I walked to the church doors and down that aisle crying (nearly weeping), all I could do was thank God for his goodness. I thanked him from the second my precious friend whispered those words to me, all the way until my dad lovingly (and tearfully) handed me to my now husband.
My tears were an offering of thanksgiving to the Lord for grace, for family, for love, for marriage, for friendship, for new beginnings, for support, for beauty, for kindness, for SALVATION.